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Thursday, 07 February 2008

Well, it has been so long since I have written on here but I thought you know hey why not I am bored I will catch the world up on my life. I currently live in Orlando, Florida. I am in my junior year to get my Bachelor's degree in Forensic Science Analysis with minors in Chemistry and Criminal Justice. I should graduate in about two years and then I get to move back to Kansas City. Jon and I are still together we just celebrated our three year anniversary and everything with us is great. We have a cat that is a little over a year old and she is wonderful. That is my kid and she acts just like one. I still work for Target and I have been trying to get promoted for about a year now and it looks like it may finally happen in the next few months. I am really excited.
Well Tyler and Tanner are both in school now and they talk to me like real adults do sometimes. I miss them being little. And Matthew is getting so big I remember when he was the shy little red headed boy who didn't want anyone but his mommy. But, now he is walking, talking, and has conversations with you. Katrina is pregnant again and is due this March. I am excited except for the fact that it is another boy. But hey they are all cute. I really miss being around them all the time. My brother is graduating high school this year and it doesn't even seem like it is possible, but I am glad the boy is finished. He is thinking about going to some technical college in Jefferson City. Which is cool as long as he does what he wants to do. Jon's sister is graduating this year too, and is planning on attending University of Kansas next year. Also, Jon's brother is getting married in the fall which should be fun. Jon is excited because he gets to be the best man.
Jon and I have no plans of getting married anytime soon, for everyone who are wondering. We want to finish school and get established before we get married or have any children. Anyway I am going to go now so I can prepare for my mock trial tomorrow. Talk to everyone later.
Crystal
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Thursday, 22 June 2006

Yeah I get to see Jon today. I got a new car for those who dont know and I move Sunday...I am so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!

Crystal

Monday, 10 April 2006

I live in a world where I sometimes wonder if I am heard or even if I matter. I live in a world where I sit and look at the people around me doing things that don't make them happy and are always in pain, but the thing is why don't they realize when enough is enough. I feel so bad because here I am an audience watching a really bad play before my eyes and as if I was at a real production I cant do anything to help the actors involved. Why is that when people are unhappy and know that the things they are doing and the people they are with are bad for them they stick around. Kid or no kid you should not stay in a relationship that will cause more pain then happiness in the long run. However, I say these things and they are my thoughts my opinions, my advice I give the actors, however it goes through the air and is never heard. One party hates criticism and believes he does no harm or the harm he does shouldn't ruin a relationship and the other party seems to be to scared to leave and better herself in the long run. I sometimes sit and think to myself if three years when the chance for this relationship arose and she never took it where would they be where would any of us be? Probably in better places. However, now they are here in the world of parenthood and sometimes I think in a world of confusion and lies. I guess I cant make the actors do anything because I am the audience, but sometimes I wish I were the script writer so I could demolish the actresses pain and maybe change the actor to be more respectful and sensitive and possibly more in tune with what people feel he should shouldn't do. Most of create a long lasting relationship between the two instead of the bottom ups relationship from hell that it is. As a spectator looking in this world is crazy and they both do things to hurt each other, but it always starts from the lack of respect and sometimes the fact that the relationship is doomed and they need to take a break...How this sad love tale will end I the spectator will unfortunately have to watch and hope that the pain stops here and the new beginning starts. until then ladies and gentlemen it is here for all the world to see and speak of but apparently never change...I hope in the end this poem below doesn't end up the consequence.

Reaching

by Jill Leenderts

I reached out for your hand
You didn't seem to care;
You can only reach so far
When no one else is there.

Others also reached for you
Hoping to make you see;
That we're just as important
As he will ever be.

We wish we could reach further
But we are only so strong;
We hoped your eyes would open
So that you'd see you're wrong.

It hurts to have to reach far
When you once were so near;
It's hard shouting out for you
With our voices you don't hear.

We wish you'd extend your hand
And sense the friendship there;
Knowing what our memories mean
Showing us you still care.

We realize you don't reach back
Instead his hands with yours;
You can't handle both the worlds
So you close common doors.

We're done reaching for the past
You are now on your own;
We hope he is all worth it,
Without him you're alone.

Tuesday, 21 March 2006

Hey everyone! Well, I am sitting here bored. Jon is at work and I don't have much to do. it is like really hot and windy outside. I love it down here and I really don't want to go home. But unfortunately I have to and I have to wait until June to move down here permanently. Anyway, everything down here has been cool. I have just been visiting UCF, gone apartment shopping and been out getting a tan. So far my Spring Break is going great!!! Anyway talk to everyone later.

~Crystal~

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